the RESULT OF MY STUDY-LIFE:)

AHNYEONG HASEYO! haha, dah cakap korea pulak aku ni:) spEAking in many different language can be an advantage for us to further our study. it's REALLLLYYY a good thing BUT I don't have any certificate that saying I know korean language:) what to do. the class that had korean language teaching is tooooo far from my house. so, let's learn through INTERNET. kekeke.


so, blah blah blah. . 21/03 is the date when my heart and all Form5 beats super fast. the RESULT IS COMINGGGGG OUT! huhhhhh~ but, that day my heart is calmer than during the day I took  my PMR result. maybe I used to felt that way before. what to do. . it was the day that I cry more than ever(I think). the moment I start crying when I saw my friend with straight A. my eyes were watery when saw the slip that she hold. AZWA, you make me cry T^T! haha, I know that slip isn't written my name on it but I feel happy for her. TOO MUCH HAPPINESSS!


my turn to take it. with my eyes start watery and I became way too nervous and started to do something stupid like jumping around in front the counter. hehe =.=" I can't control myself when nervy. after singning the school leaving certificate and other paper, my teacher, CIK BALQIS, hand-over that half A4 paper to me. quickly, I turn over without seeing the result. my chemistry teacher congratulate me with my chemist result. I thank my teacher (I don't know why) and run away. with my eyes close, I flipped over that slip. little by little I opened my eyes. it's nerve-recking! 


finally, with all guts I opened my eyes. not bad actually yet there is one thing that really make me upset. way too sadddd. my friend came to me and sit besides me. I look over her slip. congratulation! weeeehehe. then, I dialled up my mom's number and declare my result with tears. she says 'okayh le tu.dah jangan nangis.' then, suddenly I saw my dad. I stand up and went to hug him. showing my result to him and he just comforting me. and, thanks that foe lending your shirt to weep my tears away:D actually I don't really know what my feeling on that day. it was all mixed up.


anyway, I would like to thank to all my school and tuition teachers. all your teaching are really worthy for me to used up during the exam. SEONSAENGNIM GOMAWOYO, neomu gomawoyo:) even there is some regrets mark in my heart but it worthfull with all my hard work. and also to my friends thank you. you give me strength and wake me from day dreaming. hehe, we all have good time in school. I hope you all do not forget me when we all further our study all over the globe:) never forget this hyperactive girl. see you outside, friends:D SEE YA LATER \>.</

-duraDRAMA-

LONG TIME NO SEE!

after awhile, I didn't post anything new in this blog of mine. keroooo~ haha, I'm kinda busy feeling nervous about my result that would come out just around the corner. OMG! huhhh, cool down and get a good grief DURA! 


recently, my emotion kinda not in a stable mood. you know la, girls:D so, while watching a video of a campaign made by INFINITE , L my bias, is an actor in that video. seeing him tearing up in that video campaign, my heart broken and all my tears rolls down on my cheeks. it was 1.30 a.m! and I was crying like hell in my room. and I supposed to close the video and just go to sleep to forget about this thing. BUT! I keep hittin' repeat, peat, peat . . . . haha:) about 3 to 4 times I watched that video on the same day.

this is the video!

and as you know (for those who has read my previou post about my crush), I try to confess my true feeling to him. in the end, I didn't know whether he understand what I try to tell him. I supposed call him to tell about this 'important' thing but due to low income I just can give him 3-page of message:D WHATEVER! after confess averything to him, I'm feel more relief. I don't know why. it supposed to be nerve-recking because I didn't know what answer would he give me, right?


the next day, he reply my message. and all sudden, I feel nervous. at first, I hesitate to see the text. bt, with THE POWER OF MY BRAVERY I open the message. I think he didn't get what I try to tell him. what the. . . so in the end, we both just keep our 'FRIENDSHIP'. nothing happened so far between me and him. hahaha:D what a funny moment. it's all happened because I followed my heart without asking my brain first:P 


my advice, calling is better than texting. so, all your ideas that you try to tell can be understood by other people:D

-duraDRAMA-

P I E C E S.

heart; an organ that usually involved in emotional stuff. HEY! can you just do your regular job; pump bloods to all parts of the body. haishh. . sorry, I'm to emotional lately. I LOVE YOU,HEART! don't stop pumping my blood, okay? haha. 


pass by in front of that, my eyes will wildly searching the shadow of you. seeing you smiling over there makes my heart calm and melt. the shining white teeth of you can be seen clearly from where I were. I really wish to see those heart-melting smile everyday. but that only a childish dream of mine. you can't be mine. the status 'FRIENDS' are only my cover-line to be close with you. I don't mind about that as long as I can still be with you. it just sometimes I think that you treat me so nicely as if I were really special to you. then, I were really confused. do you really like me? or do you always treat your friends like that?


but until recently, the distance between you and me has decrease. did I a little annoying? busy with your job; I can understand that. but, please don't stay away from me. everyday I'll be waiting for your messages and calls. please don't be like this. it shattered my heart.


and after awhile, I had learned from this story. don't put your hopes too high up even you know that he is the one. because, you wouldn't know what really his true feelings about you. just be cool and never be TOO over-whelming just because he treated you EXTRA special. okay, NITE!


extra ; 


collecting on the floor. already glued that pieces of heart that had broken once. letting it dry to stay strong whenever there is another impact on it. but please, don't leave crack on it because even a crack can even mash it up. I don't want to hurt my hands to pick up that pointed smashed glass of heart no more.

fixed!

-duraDRAMA-

Y.O.U

warna hitam mula mewarnai langit di atas 

mata semakin berat, badan terasa letih akibat aktiviti harian ingin berehat

di atas tilam yang empok

badan berpusing-pusing untuk berasa selesa

walaupun diri terasa penat; mata tidak dapat ditutp dengan rapi

kenapa?

hati ini; yang kecil lagi rapuh

terasa gelisah dan sedih 

teringatkan si dia yang tidak tahu akan perasaan aku terhadapnya

setiap malam aku berfikir

cara memberitahu si dia

aku sudah tidak sanggup lagi untuk menanggungya

terasa sakit

tetapi tiada perkataan yang sesuai untuk disusun

tiada bahasa yang mampu meluahkan perasaan ini

bagiku,

hanya masa yang mampu beritahu isi hatiku kepadamu.

p/s:jiwang pula malam-malam buta ni:)ini hanya luahan perasaan saja ye.

-duraDRAMA-

TAK IKHLAS!

assalamualaikum! tak jawab dosa. pape pon SELAMAT MENYAMBUT MAULIDUR RASUL. di pagi Ahad, kami sekeluarga pon tengok la tv ade ceramah ke or cerita yang best-best. and we saw this talk in TV1. pergh kelakar and isi ceramah die memang mendalam. dengan cara penyampaian ucapan ustaz tersebut, penonton tidak akan sama sekali berasa mengantuk bila mendengar ceramah tu. malangnya, waktu yang diberi tidak mampu menyumbat segala inti pati ucapan tersebut. hmmm~


then, we one family when to 'this supermarket' to buy some gorceries and do some window shopping too. I LIKE*wink. after awhile, we went to the paid for the stuff. on each of the workers' shirts there was a badge said 'SERVE WITH A SMILE'. but, even her eyes can tell that 'erghh,banyak pulak orang hari ni'. mak oii,kalau malas nak kerja berhenti je lagi senang,kan? pelanggan pon tak sakit hati tengok muke kau tuh. not only the cashier, even the runner (person that would go check the prices if there is no bar code) has that 'EEE,MENYEMAK JE' face. memang lepas ni, aku pergi kedai runcit je nak beli barang dapur. huh!


senyuman tu takde pon kene bayar.kalau korang-korang yang buat muke camtu,cermin dulu muka tu. kalau tak bape nak lawa, jangan la nak buat muke 'aku lebih hot dari kau'. wei, hot lagi neraka kayh (ayat famous adek aku). and tolong la anda-anda yang diluar tu, lagi-lagi berjantina P, tolong jangan jeling aku. baju aku ada yang koyak ke? muke aku nie teruk sangat ke? aku tau la aku COMEL (mintak ampun kalau terlalu poyo) sampai makcik-makcik yang aku jumpe ingat aku ni FORM3 lagi =.="" SAYA DAH HABIH SEKOLAHHHH!!! perlu ke aku wat satu mini banner and gantung kat badan untuk bagi tau pasal ni. haha, emo kejap pasal benda kecil tuh.

NEVER FORGET THIS!

so, tu je aku nak share.  KBYE:D

-duraDRAMA-

SABAR JE LAH!

wahh,dah start bawak kereta dah! FULL OF EXCITEMENT AND NERVOUS. haha, kali pertama bawak mesti la nervous kan? dah la sebelum ni tak penah bawak kereta except main game kat arcade (itu pon sume pehalangan dilanggar). keroooooooo. . jadi, latihan bermula pada pukul 12.20 tengah hari. selepas dah tau sume paddle kat dalam kereta, teman bawok la kereta Viva kat atas litar. 


tersengguk-sengguk kereta tu teman bawok. sori ye mak cik:) saya tak biasa bawak kete. tu la gunanye belajarkan? hahaha:D dah okayh kat atas litar, saat-saat yang ditunggu telah BERMULA! 'jom kita naik atas bukit ye' YES! saat yang ditunggu telah tiba. ramai kawan cakap naik and turun bukit cam naik ROLLERCOASTER. ekk?? memnag pon! cume tak lepas tangan je waktu turun bukit. kalau tak hmm. . 'mak cik sorry sebab kereta remuk. saya terlebih excited tadi' . lepas dah pusing-pusing atas litar, mak cik suruh pegi atas JALAN RAYA *gulp! MAK CIK SAYA TAK BERSEDIA LAGIII!!! ya allah, panjangkanlah umur hamba Mu ini. 


setiba di traffic light pertama, dengan lembut mak cik menegur, 'berhenti kereta tuh biar nampak tayar and jalan raya kat depan. ni dah rapat sangat nie:)' hehe,atenye mak cik saya tak biasa, ajarlah saya dengan penuh kesabarannye. lampu dah hijau. MASA UNTUK JALAN. clush and minyak dihujung kakiku. tapi disebabkan hari pertama, mana la kaki teman nak biasa, dah la teman nie penuh dengan kekurangan=.=" dengan sikap tidak sabar dan KURANG KURANG SOPAN orang dibelakang telah membunyikan hopn. dalam hati nie dah mencarut-carut dah. sabo je lah ye, dura. muke mak cik tu cam benggang je. so, tanpa mempedulikan orang dieblakang yang macam &*%#, kereta jalan slow-slow and lampu traffic light jadi ! padan muke kome,sape suruh wat aku gabra. kalau tak hon-hon kat aku dah lama kite lepas! MUAHAHAHA:D 


jalan terkedek-kedek kat atas jalan raya yang sibuk. peduli ape aku, aku tangah belajar kereta. aku bukannye expert. sampai kat traffic light ketiga, enjin kereta MATI! malu teman. tak nak tengok mana, tengok depan je. haha, akhirnye sampai kat tempat belajar kereta tuh. fuh selamat akhirnye:) tapi memang tuttt betul sape yang hon-hon tuh. ala macam la waktu ko belajar kereta mule-mule tu tak macam tuh. huh! MAKA LATIHAN PADA HARI INI TAMMAT! yeyyyy~

-duraDRAMA-

HE IS THE ONE!

I am currently watching SESAME PLAYER season 2 that including INFINITE as their 'players'. people might think that their live in this programme are un-TRUE (probably they are not a K-POP fan).  the first episode of this show, has shown the true skin of each member in the INFINITE. the spirit of HYPERNESS and NAUGHTINESS shine each of them *haha. but in this group there is one member that merely has any reaction. in other words, he is carefree to all things. the only thing that he would is SMILE! his name is KIM MYUNG SOO a.k.a L (his stage name). eventhough he has O blood type (which supposed to be quite energatic), he is a quiet person. only sometimes, the naughtiness appeared from his innocent look.

PROFILE OF L :

Name: 엘 / L

Real name: 김명수 / Kim Myeong Su / Kim Myung Soo

Japanese name: キム･ミョンス / Kim Myonsu

Profession: Singer and actor

Birthdate: 1992 Mac 13

Birthplace: Seoul, South Korea

Height: 178 cm

Star sign: Pisces

Blood type: O

Family: Parents and younger brother

Talent agency: Woollim Entertainment

OPPAAAA!

from their debut video, COME BACK TO ME, my eyes are glued at L. his cold eyes has frozen my heart until now *OMO! after that, INFINITE has release many mini album from 2010 until 2012, they keep releasing an AMAZING and HEART MELTING songs. their songs are usually a dance-song that make you want move along with the rhythm. not only involving with music industries, they also has join hosting industries for some reality shows. for L he was a head in front from his other member in the group to debut at JAPAN. this is because he was offered to play a role in a japan drama called JIU POLICE CRIMINAL INVESTIGATION. his character in this drama is a criminal (he was wearing a wig in this drama.yucks!). at 2012 which is this year he was again play a role in a japan drama 'again' called SHUT UP FLOWER BOY BAND. he is a guitarist in this drama *wahhhh. 


anyway, the reason why I love him is the way his smile and his cold eyes. its soooo heart-melting (for me,of course).  he has that smiled-eyed when he smiling at the camera. I wish one day, I will be going to their concert! I WILL! people might think that it is useless if you really like an idol that would recognise you as his fan only. but, at least it doesn't hurt you because you know he even barely knew you too than love someone that close to you:)


this is some picture of L :

that glare penetrate my heart:)

cute!

even when he was sleeping,OMG!

-duraDRAMA-