meet them!

assalamualaikumm semuaaa. .excited to write a new post.hehehe,during my time at KMPK I usually spend my times with my classmates.its not like I didn't close to my roomates but due to our different courses so,my time are much more to be spend with my classmates or maybe outside my room.well,I do love to a take a walk in the evening.good for health too :)

so,let me introduce my ROCKING CLASSMATES !

girls only but some are missing :P

boys and some are missing too -..-"

there you go,my classmates.actually there are some of them are missing from the pictures.but nevermind.F1T2,they bring me HAPPINESS AND SADNESS all along.thank you for being a good friends,teach me the meaning of a friendship and love,also thanks for making me laugh so hard and cry at the end.that is so meaningful to me

look how childish our picture can be *idea badang

I do hope we can meet someday and we have to do a reunion no matter what! huhh!

after a week pass, I already miss you guys so much.I miss when we gather during our last dinner together,spending our time in tutorial class and lab.those bring me tears.can we have a group hugs? huhuhu (T^T) hahaha,I know we do keep in touch in our social network but i want we all sit together facing each other and talk.it is much more fun.

btw,F1T2 is an awesome, rocking, coolest class that I ever had lml>.<lml rock on!

F1T2 <3

RINDUUU DENGAN BLOG !

yoloo everyoneee. .ehh,assalamualaikum peeps :) it has been awhile since a I open up this page.what a mess tho.well,it was my final sem for my matriculation program so it's kinda busy for me plus it is so hard to find a wifi there.huhh~ but it's okayh.at least I can control my "nafsu" to online.kekeke

so,my matriculation program now are over.and there,so much memories that had been create all over the place.sometimes,each songs that I heard in the radio will make me remembered of our sweet memories.its make me cryyyy (T^T) . but what can I do,"setiap pertemuan ade perpisahannye".

I just hope that one day we all can meet up and tell each others update.it will be nice.hope to see you soon batch 12/13 KMPK's students :)

bahagian belakang KMPK :) *tempat melepak petang-2

I HAVE TO LEARN

heyy and assalamualaikum peeps. . it's been a while since I've been posted the old ones. hmm, I had entered matriculation so it kinda busy everyday with assignment and study group. MISS THIS BLOGGG >.< so entering new phase of life has gave me a chance to gain more experience in life. meeting new people with different faces and personalities. some can be accepted by me, some I should be more patient with them (or maybe NOT). what to do,right? they are human beings, so when I started to stay away from you thats mean I try not to be closed with you because I do not want to make the situation more worst. 

then, I try to learn to change my little boyish personalities inside me. this is BECAUSE I grew up and turn into a young lady (uuuuuuuuuuu dura,hahaha). by the way, I want a boyfriend. I been lucky if I get one that can accept my little roughness. hey, nobody perfect. it's what my best buddy told me. so, he should accept me for who I am but no matter what I also should change myself. be more LADY DURA! by the way, I got my eyes on someone. he just perfect with good attitude and good in study. but, I try to be closed with him first. step by step is the safe way to start. mom has given green light about this. so, WISH ME LUCK;)

getting to know new commities from my peers has gain me a lot of connections. usually I not really friendly with people around me. I know as a very arrogant person because the way I look at them. but what I realise now that I have more friends from different gender with me which is boyss. . ahahahahaha:D it's W.E.I.R.D. okayh, lets forget about it. they only friends nothing more or less than that (is it???) in matriculation I got modul II which is teh same as science physical at other universities or a quite equal with engineering but we don't study about engineering yet. so in teh lecture hall it WILL be full with boys. it's like 80% of the students in lecture is BOYS! what thee. . ehehe,cuci mata le perempuan:) that's include me la. OMG! ahaha,lumrah hidup kan?? but it fun to learn with them because they are useful when it came about doing assignment. they know more than us.

learning at matriculation need an extra focus EVERYDAY! you had to catch up everything that you left behind. if not you lose out. it fast process of learning. as the result, I have to set my brain to accept eveything at the same time. I don't want to repeat the same mistake at the past. it had left a DEEP mark in my life. the first exam has past, so wish me luck to get GOOD RESULT:)

-duraDRAMA-

the RESULT OF MY STUDY-LIFE:)

AHNYEONG HASEYO! haha, dah cakap korea pulak aku ni:) spEAking in many different language can be an advantage for us to further our study. it's REALLLLYYY a good thing BUT I don't have any certificate that saying I know korean language:) what to do. the class that had korean language teaching is tooooo far from my house. so, let's learn through INTERNET. kekeke.


so, blah blah blah. . 21/03 is the date when my heart and all Form5 beats super fast. the RESULT IS COMINGGGGG OUT! huhhhhh~ but, that day my heart is calmer than during the day I took  my PMR result. maybe I used to felt that way before. what to do. . it was the day that I cry more than ever(I think). the moment I start crying when I saw my friend with straight A. my eyes were watery when saw the slip that she hold. AZWA, you make me cry T^T! haha, I know that slip isn't written my name on it but I feel happy for her. TOO MUCH HAPPINESSS!


my turn to take it. with my eyes start watery and I became way too nervous and started to do something stupid like jumping around in front the counter. hehe =.=" I can't control myself when nervy. after singning the school leaving certificate and other paper, my teacher, CIK BALQIS, hand-over that half A4 paper to me. quickly, I turn over without seeing the result. my chemistry teacher congratulate me with my chemist result. I thank my teacher (I don't know why) and run away. with my eyes close, I flipped over that slip. little by little I opened my eyes. it's nerve-recking! 


finally, with all guts I opened my eyes. not bad actually yet there is one thing that really make me upset. way too sadddd. my friend came to me and sit besides me. I look over her slip. congratulation! weeeehehe. then, I dialled up my mom's number and declare my result with tears. she says 'okayh le tu.dah jangan nangis.' then, suddenly I saw my dad. I stand up and went to hug him. showing my result to him and he just comforting me. and, thanks that foe lending your shirt to weep my tears away:D actually I don't really know what my feeling on that day. it was all mixed up.


anyway, I would like to thank to all my school and tuition teachers. all your teaching are really worthy for me to used up during the exam. SEONSAENGNIM GOMAWOYO, neomu gomawoyo:) even there is some regrets mark in my heart but it worthfull with all my hard work. and also to my friends thank you. you give me strength and wake me from day dreaming. hehe, we all have good time in school. I hope you all do not forget me when we all further our study all over the globe:) never forget this hyperactive girl. see you outside, friends:D SEE YA LATER \>.</

-duraDRAMA-

LONG TIME NO SEE!

after awhile, I didn't post anything new in this blog of mine. keroooo~ haha, I'm kinda busy feeling nervous about my result that would come out just around the corner. OMG! huhhh, cool down and get a good grief DURA! 


recently, my emotion kinda not in a stable mood. you know la, girls:D so, while watching a video of a campaign made by INFINITE , L my bias, is an actor in that video. seeing him tearing up in that video campaign, my heart broken and all my tears rolls down on my cheeks. it was 1.30 a.m! and I was crying like hell in my room. and I supposed to close the video and just go to sleep to forget about this thing. BUT! I keep hittin' repeat, peat, peat . . . . haha:) about 3 to 4 times I watched that video on the same day.

this is the video!

and as you know (for those who has read my previou post about my crush), I try to confess my true feeling to him. in the end, I didn't know whether he understand what I try to tell him. I supposed call him to tell about this 'important' thing but due to low income I just can give him 3-page of message:D WHATEVER! after confess averything to him, I'm feel more relief. I don't know why. it supposed to be nerve-recking because I didn't know what answer would he give me, right?


the next day, he reply my message. and all sudden, I feel nervous. at first, I hesitate to see the text. bt, with THE POWER OF MY BRAVERY I open the message. I think he didn't get what I try to tell him. what the. . . so in the end, we both just keep our 'FRIENDSHIP'. nothing happened so far between me and him. hahaha:D what a funny moment. it's all happened because I followed my heart without asking my brain first:P 


my advice, calling is better than texting. so, all your ideas that you try to tell can be understood by other people:D

-duraDRAMA-

P I E C E S.

heart; an organ that usually involved in emotional stuff. HEY! can you just do your regular job; pump bloods to all parts of the body. haishh. . sorry, I'm to emotional lately. I LOVE YOU,HEART! don't stop pumping my blood, okay? haha. 


pass by in front of that, my eyes will wildly searching the shadow of you. seeing you smiling over there makes my heart calm and melt. the shining white teeth of you can be seen clearly from where I were. I really wish to see those heart-melting smile everyday. but that only a childish dream of mine. you can't be mine. the status 'FRIENDS' are only my cover-line to be close with you. I don't mind about that as long as I can still be with you. it just sometimes I think that you treat me so nicely as if I were really special to you. then, I were really confused. do you really like me? or do you always treat your friends like that?


but until recently, the distance between you and me has decrease. did I a little annoying? busy with your job; I can understand that. but, please don't stay away from me. everyday I'll be waiting for your messages and calls. please don't be like this. it shattered my heart.


and after awhile, I had learned from this story. don't put your hopes too high up even you know that he is the one. because, you wouldn't know what really his true feelings about you. just be cool and never be TOO over-whelming just because he treated you EXTRA special. okay, NITE!


extra ; 


collecting on the floor. already glued that pieces of heart that had broken once. letting it dry to stay strong whenever there is another impact on it. but please, don't leave crack on it because even a crack can even mash it up. I don't want to hurt my hands to pick up that pointed smashed glass of heart no more.

fixed!

-duraDRAMA-

Y.O.U

warna hitam mula mewarnai langit di atas 

mata semakin berat, badan terasa letih akibat aktiviti harian ingin berehat

di atas tilam yang empok

badan berpusing-pusing untuk berasa selesa

walaupun diri terasa penat; mata tidak dapat ditutp dengan rapi

kenapa?

hati ini; yang kecil lagi rapuh

terasa gelisah dan sedih 

teringatkan si dia yang tidak tahu akan perasaan aku terhadapnya

setiap malam aku berfikir

cara memberitahu si dia

aku sudah tidak sanggup lagi untuk menanggungya

terasa sakit

tetapi tiada perkataan yang sesuai untuk disusun

tiada bahasa yang mampu meluahkan perasaan ini

bagiku,

hanya masa yang mampu beritahu isi hatiku kepadamu.

p/s:jiwang pula malam-malam buta ni:)ini hanya luahan perasaan saja ye.

-duraDRAMA-